Random….
So this dude told me he was going to punch me in the face today…because I wouldn’t give him a high five. Apparently he was my co-worker’s boyfriend, but I had never seen him in my life. My first reaction was to hesitate because I didn’t know who he was. So he says to this other guy, “Man, if this chick doesn’t give me a high five I’m gonna punch her in her fucking face.”
Are you fucking kidding me? That is the most disrespectful thing a guy has said to me in a LONG time. I mean, I’m constantly called a bitch or stuck up because I don’t waste my time with random LOSERS. But for this fool to says he’s going to punch me (and not even say just kidding or even LAUGH) was beyond ridiculous. It didn’t help that I have been holding a lot of stuff in from the last week. My lack of an emotional outlet got the best of me (as usual) and I got WAY too upset about it.
Believe it or not, I didn’t cry or yell or do anything CRAZY. But I did feel my emotions get out of control. I got too mad and stayed that way for a long while. I’m not sure if my lack of a reaction is a good thing, but I’m just happy nobody saw me get upset. The whole thing was “uncool”, but I shouldn’t have been that mad about it. The old version of myself would have put that fool in his place. I keep trying to find that girl. I wonder where she disappeared to because I really need her right now. I keep thinking, “Why is everything so intense with me?”
Anyway….I found out today that we are having a small “service” for my grandma on Wednesday. I don’t know what my mom did, but I hope it’s just the burial of the remains. I saw the paperwork from the funeral home and it said something about embalming for family viewing. THAT is too weird for me and would hurt too much. I hope we’re not having a viewing. I want to remember my grandma a certain way.
In other news….
I’m seriously over people saying one thing to me and doing another. WHY? My family, friends, guys. LOL I keep trying to wrap my head around it and I don’t get it. I’ve got Jess, my brother, and my sisters to trust at the moment. Everyone else seems to have other reasons to get behind my walls. You “like” me or you like LOOKING at me and just want to get in my pants. You’re more interested in yourself than how I might be feeling.
Also…
I feel like you guys would know for sure if I “LIKE” you. If I haven’t made a move, I DON’T LIKE YOU LIKE THAT! I honestly feel bad because there are some awesome guys in my life. But I can’t like everyone that likes me. I can’t and I refuse to lead people on. It’s fucked up and you guys should stop doing it too! I really have so many stupid situations going on…and I’m not directing this at any one person. A few of them don’t even know this blog exists. lol But I need to vent.
At the same time, I think when I decide to let go, I really do it and I fall hard. My feelings get hurt easily too. I wish there was some middle ground. I also wish that I didn’t try so hard to trust people that probably don’t deserve it. Like what’s his face…lol. The rest of this conversation is for a certain time and certain ears.
I just took a quiz that said
Tiffany completed the quiz “When will you get married?” with the result 40s+.
You are not in any rush at all to get married. You really want to make sure that you get a chance to follow your dreams before you make such a huge commitment. If you get married at all it will be later in life..
Wow…I guess there’s a reason my relationships fail and I don’t really try to seriously date people anymore. haha And yes I take those Facebook quizzes VERY seriously.
I’m watching Crazy/Beautiful. One of my FAVORITE movies ever, minus Kirsten Dunst and her TERRIBLE acting (made better by Jay Hernandez and his FINE FINE self). For the first time her character actually reminds me of…..me. Scary. There’s a reason I feel an attachment to this movie. I’d go into details about it, but I think I’ve overstayed my welcome in this post. LOL
Oh yeah. Wet N’ Wild for Balloon Fest on Monday, for those of you that would like to come along. We’re putting money together for food and buying the tickets on Wednesday. Get back to me if you’re interested.
And with that….DEUCES!