If I Hadn’t Made Me…

So…I’m a psych major…and I’m a headcase…BUT…I think Freud is a jackass.

I’m reading a book right now called In a Different Voice: Psychological Theory and Women’s Development.  I am mindful of the fact that this book was published in 1982, BUT BUT BUT it’s not like Freud has come up with any new theories since then. hahaha  So, I feel like Carol Gilligan has some valid points, she also explains Freud in a different light. 

I’m sure you’ve all heard of the Oedipus complex, right?  If not, look it up.  It’s a pretty simple concept.  Freud basically built his psychosexual theory around the whole Oedipus thing.  It’s rather irritating, because he decided to fit women in later because he was criticized.  Obviously, women and men,  boys and girls, develop differently.  DUH!  Freud had no better ideas, so he decided that since women did not have this stupid complex, they developed differently…ok…..But then he decides that this is a developmental FAILURE!

Anyway, my point is that Freud probably fucked alot of things up for me and other women.  The whole penis envy thing, it is lame, at best.  Have any of you ever read Mulvey?  Heard of fear of castration?  haha It’s based on this.  Look her up too.  I hear that shit from guys pretty often.  I’m not jealous that you have a penis!  I’m not jealous at all! But I am PISSED OFF, that a lot of men think they are the superior sex.  I’m pissed off because I have to spend my days being controlled by white men…because they control our country.

Honestly, you may think this is a feminist rant, but I have a problem with these “privileged” people treating me like shit.  Just because I am brown and I have a vagina doesn’t mean you can talk to me like I’m a fucking dog! You got that?!?!  I work hard.  I pay fucking taxes and I pay my fucking bills.  I’m not some whore that can’t keep her legs closed, sitting at home collecting welfare.  So, don’t fucking talk to me like I’m beneath you.  You may have more $$$ than me, but atleast I have some damn self respect and I’m working for what I have….unlike the shit that was passed down to you.

It gets really old.  These “men” wanna smile in my face, call me ditzy/blonde, and tell me how pretty I am. FUCK YOU! Then you turn around and talk about me behind my back like I don’t deserve your fucking respect. Ass holes.

Yes, I’m pissed off.  I just don’t understand.  I work hard, I do what everyone expects me to do.  Some how this is never enough.  I always have to push harder and try to be smarter.  Then again…I guess that never works.  I guess I have a vagina, so that makes me less valuable.  I can’t carry large objects, so I guess I’m not worthy of the same respect you give everyone else.

Anyway, I’m done ranting.  It’s just crazy to me…the stuff that men have the audacity to say and do.  Don’t get me wrong.  I love men! LOL  The good ones.  But those rich/well off, white ones?  ….I can’t wait until we have a black president! I can’t fucking WAIT!  I am VERY aware that this will not change everything, but it is a damn good start. Although, it has taken us WAY too long to get here.

Ok, I’m done now.  I’m going to continue to read by books and educate myself.  I hope you all are doing the same.