So, I’m been posting alot lately. This is because I lack something better to do, but it also helps me. I can “talk” when no one else is around to listen to me.
But why do I keep writing? It doesn’t seem like anyone is listening and it doesn’t seem like anyone cares. I do not expect an overwhelming response to every word that I “utter.” I just wanna know that someone is “listening.”
I have two sisters and a brother that do not read my blog. I’m pretty sure they don’t….I think. That makes me sad. I love the three of them with all of my heart. My brother is disinterested because he’s a guy, he’s 18, and I guess he has better things to do. My sisters. I don’t know why they would not read. Maybe it is because they do not see the things that I see. They have a support system. I do not. Sure, we have very different views when it comes to religion. But I respect their views. At the same time, shouldn’t we be able to talk about that stuff? And it’s hard for me to understand why they get all weird and act like I’m some kinda of radical when I mention women’s rights. Do they not realize that women had to FIGHT to get us to where we are today? Then again….no. I won’t make a comment about my father and their mother. It’s not their fault their mother is a submissive, whiny wife to my overly dominate, RIDICULOUS father. That is beyond our control. I just want to know that they will support me in my endeavours. I would do the same for them.
It’s heartbreaking, really. I know I am not an eloquent writer. My vocabulary is not even close to where I would like it to be. It makes me sad that I have the guts to express myself and you all have nothing to say in return. This blog shows me the stats. I know you all are clicking on my links from the myspace bulletins. I know how many people visit my blog every day. One day I had 86 visits and not one comment. Are you all scared to agree or disagree? Or do you just not care?
I don’t know why I am doing this anymore? I try to share information and the only person I ever get feedback from is Brooke. Occasionally I have visits from people that do not even know me in “real life.” That’s it? That’s all I get from you guys? I put all this out there for you to see and it falls on deaf ears. Sad.
Anyway, I’m sure I will continue to write. I just hope that you all are listening and reading. If you think what I say is stupid…TELL ME! Just don’t call me names. Come with your intelligence. I’d be happy to “hear” what you have to say. Or you can just remain anonymous like you already are.
