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So, I’m tired of people being so damn negative. Let me just say that if you want to criticize anything on this blog…come prepared. And have something INTELLIGENT to say. Don’t get mad just because I said I’m not jealous of Sarah Palin. I’m not. I don’t want to be a white, republican, pro-life woman from Alaska. Nope…hehehehe. It’s funny that people are still so upset about her. They lost. Get over it. It’s our turn now.
That being said, let’s get to the point of this entry. Weight.
Ugh! I have never been one to complain about my weight. I’ve never had any WEIGHT to speak of. You all know this. I know this. My mom knows this. So why…have I gained like 15 pounds in the last 6 months? This would not be a big deal if my clothes still fit.
Is this a result of the anti depressants? The mood stabilizer? Living alone? Being single? My birth control? BLAH! all of which I can not change right now.
I can not afford to buy new clothes. I have started to hate the way I look in pictures. The thigh areas of my pants are too tight. My stomach is starting to have permanent impressions from the buttons on my pants. It’s uncomfortable to sit down.
Don’t get me wrong ladies/guys. I know that I have nothing to complain about. I just find it odd that I am having such an issue with my body now. I have never really had body image issues. Well, like everyone else I have my little things I do not like, but this is becoming a major issue for me.
I’m 5′9″ and add another half inch to that. When I went to the dr. a few weeks ago I was 162. I tell you this as I eat 8 fresh out of the oven chocolate chip cookies.
How do you all deal with you body image issues? I hate working out. It’s BORING. But I know that I am getting older and my metabolism is slowing down. All my meds probably aren’t helping. Is being single and living alone making this worse? The chocolate chip cookies? I can’t give up the cookies! That’s the only junk food I can afford now (if I have a coupon)!
I’ll stop complaining now. I was just wondering how everyone deals with this. I’m tired of act like I don’t have body image issues just because i’m “thin.” Us “thin” girls have problems too. I want to love myself as I am, but it’s hard with the media telling us something different. The fact that I don’t have anyone telling me how beautiful I am and that they love me is not aiding me at all. (Cue: The I Miss Eric Memories. BLAH)
I’m going now. Leave some comments. Preferably advice that does not require a treadmill. How do you love yourselves?
