…things couldn’t get worse…they ALMOST did.
I had a terrible weekend, but I also had an epiphany (I love how that rhymes with my name 
) This is the definition I’m referring to, for those of you that don’t know exactly what it means:
Epiphany:
a sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.
I’m not trying to insult your intelligence. I know for a fact that some people would have to look that word up, even though it seems like nothing to some of us. 
Anyway, after Friday night’s incident, I realized that everything that has happened to me has happened for a reason. I always sort of knew that, but I realized that no matter how much RIGHT I try to do, people are still going to do me wrong. Instead of worrying about them, I need to worry about me. I have spent so much of my life worrying about everyone else and I’ve said this a million times. Honestly, I just realized that being “nice” to my “friends” has gotten me no place. I’m always a step behind and I realized that it’s because I’m letting everyone else step on me to get to where they are!
The whole mess with “what’s her face” is what it took for me to realize this. Like my dad says, some people are only meant to be in your life for a season and she was around for a very SHORT season. That girl was placed in my life to make me realize that I don’t have to put up with that shit anymore. She was never my FRIEND and she’s not anyone’s friend which is why she doesn’t have any REAL ones. I’m thankful for being given the opportunity to be in Vegas and I will continue to be thankful for her “hospitality” but I don’t need hand outs bad enough to let A treat me like crap. I am going to pray for her because her low self esteem is the reason she treats people like that. I wish nothing bad upon her. I just hope that she realizes that she’s beautiful (on the outside, at the very least) and has a lot to offer if she does it the right way. Nobody owes you ANYTHING, so stop thinking that they do. That’s not going to make you any REAL friends and it’s not going to get you anywhere either.
ANYWAY…The new week brings a job offer. I’m really excited about this one for some reason. As frustrating as it was…I actually had a lot of fun selling phones in the mall last year. Most of that had to do with my co-workers (mostly Preston because he’s fun and hilarious), but every day was a battle. I was doing the same thing over and over, but it was never exactly the same. New phones come out, new people come in, I get to have crazy people yell at me….and I got to talk to hot guys. LOL I’m not completely dense though. I know that there will be days that I HATE it, but that’s life. I just think that this will lead to some other opportunities. Plus, the money is good and that’s what I need right now. It’s WAY better than what I was making in the mall.
My birthday is coming up….just a reminder. I found FABULOUS shoes today and they are CHEAP. Not SUPER cheap, but affordable. I think I might get them tomorrow…even though I probably shouldn’t right now. BUT after the year I’ve had, I just want my birthday to be fun and I want to FEEL great. I’m turning 26….crazy.
The funny thing about getting older – I have become so much more comfortable with my body and just ME in general. I don’t really obsess over stuff like I used to. Don’t get it twisted though, I love clothes and shoes. I just don’t freak out over my body anymore like some girls. I love my skin even if I do hate my stomach sometimes (like this week…stupid Aunt Flo is on her way…I’m sure). LOL It’s such a relief. I remember seeing Delilah freak out over her body and talk about diets. I’m sure I annoyed her, but I was just like, “Yeah right…no diets for me.” I love food entirely too much to be on a diet. It’s those stupid fashion magazines! I KNOW IT! That’s why I don’t read them anymore. I’m not going to let the fashion world or society tell me how MY body should look.
Well…I completely lost my train of though for this entry. I’m chatting with Jessica and we’re talking about the someone. LOL I’m sure I’ll give you all details on that LATER.
